Okay

I think I've come to the conclusion that the experience is just beyond words. Words are not enough to explain the experience. I could sit here and try to explain it till I'm blue in the face and you will never, ever get it unless you've tried it.

I apologize for my lack of words to describe the experience.

I can't even fathom the vastness of it and I never want to do it again. It was wayyyy too much for my little brain to handle. :-

Oh yea, and I was pissed at Brian for awhile because even though he warned me about it I still wasn't prepared for it in the least.

I talked to a local headshop guy the other day and he told me that Salvia has been illegal in Florida for awhile. He also said some people have died from brain hemorrhaging while smoking salvia but I recently read online that they have been using Salvia Pellets? to 'treat' brain hemorrhaging:

Study on Compound Salvia Pellet in Treating Hypertensive Cerebral Hemorrhage

I've scoured the internet since he told me this and haven't seen a single thing about anyone dying from smoking salvia.

Some people think salvia gives you a glimpse of what it's like to die without actually dying and I believe that is what I experienced too. It was weird because it was kind of cool and kind of sucked at the same time. All this knowledge and awareness of the universe around you comes to you kind of like your brain switching states, expanding or maybe switching off and changing focus to the soul mind. That part is cool but the thought of ceasing to exist in the physical and experiencing the company of your family and friends is almost terrifying like an extreme fear of the unknown. I really never wanna do it again till it's my time. Aren't you only supposed to die once anyways?